So, prayer is very difficult for me. It's difficult for me to sit in a quiet place and talk to God when I'm not sure He is listening. And that whole "be quiet and listen" thing? Not a chance. I wish I could be some great mystic who has this great relationship with God and talks to Him and know what He wants or what He is thinking. I fully realize that you have to work at prayer in order to have a good prayer life. Just like everything in life---if you want something, you have to work for it.
That's easy to say but it is more difficult to put into practice especially when you cannot sit still for a moment.What are these distractions really though?? Distractions are things keeping us from God. They may be distractions in prayer keeping me from talking with God. They can also be things of this world that we seek in placement of God.
I heard someone say, and I don't remember who, that everything we long for in life are actually substitutions for God. It is truly Him that we are after but in His place we long for that new car or that vacation or some other thing instead. This person said that when we long for something in this world that we should refocus ourselves onto God instead.
I find it difficult to even lay down and go to sleep most of the time. How I wish I could go to sleep as fast as my wife---it seems that as soon as she closes her eyes she is a asleep. I toss and turn, thinking about different things. I even have different "daydreams" that I think about when I'm trying to put myself to sleep. I have different scenarios that help remove me from reality in order to shut my brain down.
So, I've been trying this. When I'm bored and can't focus I'll stop what I'm doing and try to refocus on God. It's only been the past few days that I've been trying it so I can't report to you and tell you how it's working so far and I can say that I've only used it when I've caught myself daydreaming. I'll have some scenario running through my head where I'm saving the world or something and I'll refocus myself and either think about God or enter a prayerful moment.
I get frustrated because I know I want God's love. I get frustrated because I want to be pleasing to God. And now I get frustrated because I recognize that these distractions are my substitutions for God because I've experienced replacing those distractions with prayerful times with God and realize that they do make me happier. But yet...... Those distractions still come up. I still fail to always put God number one in my life. I still choose sin.