As I mentioned last week, while I am going through Spanish Immersion classes I am trying to get things in order physically, nutrition wise and spiritually. One of the ways I'm trying to get things together is by going to daily mass a couple times a week. Fortunately, one of my favorite churches (Our Lady of Good Counsel) has mass every day at noon. That gives me the perfect chance to make it there, spend some time at adoration, attend mass and make it back in time for class to start.
So yesterday, I'm sitting in front of the Blessed Sacrament. Have you ever spent time in prayer and other things keep popping into your head?? Yeah--well, it happens to me all the time. And what is going through my head? Why Spanish words of course!! Just random Spanish Words. One of the words was "desear" which means "to desire" or "to wish." My mind just went from there . . .
What do I desire? What do I wish? Hopefully, everyone's answer to that while at adoration is "to be a saint." What do I want? To love God--to have that thirst for God . . . for the Bible. I want to be one of those people who think, "I can't wait to get to mass." Instead of "let's go--it will be good for you." I want to be one of those people who are just so passionate for the Lord that it shows on their face--but not in a curmudgeon or pious way. Someone who just cringes at the idea of sin.
I suppose it's possible. Hopefully before I'm 85 years old though. I know I've made grounds in the last ten years. Heck, I've made grounds in the last five years. But I'm impatient. Patience is a virtue, huh? I need to take a lesson from St. Therese and her little ways. Do the small things. Short prayers like, "Jesus, I love you" or "God, help me. Be with me."
What are you desires? What do you want to be like?